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Happy New Year

Yup! that's what it looks like outside!

No Bean Town here :( I was really counting on it!

The day is so gray, rainy, sad, cold...a mere reflection of how I am feeling.

I went to a few places last night and everything seems fuzzy and I didn't even have a drink! how odd is that?

Tonight after New Years I am leaving to New York, we are picking up my friends mom, we will sleep for a while then head back, a good way to start the year if you ask me, a quick trip to the big apple :)

Happy New Years to all! May this year brings each and every one joy, health, happiness, wisdom, love, peace, blessings and all the wonderful things life can offer!

See you all next year!!

Sincerely Yours


Every time I go out and get ready I send him pics of the end results, I came so close in doing so :(
I can't help it...
Not going far, staying in town, it is better and is getting least will be able to get down a few drinks and get a tiny buzz :)

Ready for a night out!! looking cute and comfortable...

Satisfied with the end results!

I am forgetting something, I wonder what that may be?

Undies (√), ID (√), house key (√), money (√), lipstick (√)...ready!

Kisses to all! have a great night :) 

Sincerely Yours Aluv

Nothing Helps

On my way to work stopped at a few stores, bought me some hawt ass boots, pic below of course! Bought some vitamins and a shaving into a friend of mine and finally at work, he was kind enough to drop me off.

Feels like it has been an extremely long day already ! Ugh...planning my New Years and trying to see what's out there, I feel like a noob in the streets, everything feels so new and out of my element...

I am really looking forward to the 6th of January ~FeTrix/FANE Fetish Party & Lady Shera's Bday Celebration! Should be fun...trying to keep my mind busy! Working on my New Years resolutions and other things, I have a little game plan for my blog...should be interesting and will keep me busy.  I still have to get my clothes for the party and something to wear for tomorrow night I want new gear from head to toe!  Go out and Start out with a BanG!!

I made plans with some old friend to go to a pub for drinks this evening, I tried staying away from a few peopl…

In my room

Thank you ALL for your comments, support, and advice :)

I have been up since very early, beginning to wonder if I slept at all...I am sitting on my bed with my back against the headboard, the deep red comforter covering my legs up to hips warming me while wiggling my toes trying to uncover them to feel the cold breeze, there must be a draft in here, cold air creeping in, perhaps is the air conditioner I have yet to remove...that could be it.

I am feeling numb, I've had my moments wondering, spaced out, I try to concentrate, and I haven't been able to meditate, I can't focus at the moment...but it will come back to me, I am sure of it :)

I have to work but not really in the mood, I don't have students until Monday and I just can't believe this week just flew by! Geez they go fast or what?! I don't even feel like it was Christmas week or vacation, well, that's not totally true, I went to work yesterday for a few hours to take down the Christmas decoration…

I don't even know

I can't even think of a subject for this post....

I am livid, aggravated, mad, and not at anyone in particular but with myself...!

I am reluctant to mention "Him" in my post because of past experiences and people not being able to mind their own business...but today I need to vent!!

He forgot my birthday!!

The man who says he is proud to be my owner forgot my birthday :( he wrote his regular morning email and didn't mention a thing about it, of course I thought when I got up today I was going to find an email but not even that...should I take the hint?

I am tired of making up excuses for him, telling myself how busy he is and that is why he can't spend time with me, giving me only 5 minutes or less of his time in the morning to reply to a few emails I wrote to him the day before, I sometimes think he replies out of pity...he has been on vacation since Friday of last week but I have not seen him online, neither has he made any attempt to be with me.

Where there is…

WoW Day ~&~ Happy Birthday to ME!!!

Today is my 37th birthday!! making it a WoW day!!

in the celebrating mood!

Happy WoW Day to all! just a few days to a new year! looking forward to it :)

Sincerely Yours

Kicking Back on a Tuesday

I am suppose to be working but since there are no students this week and the boss is not here today is more like party time!!!

Tomorrow is my birthday, Saturday New Years Eve celebration and a week from Friday on the 6th my first kinky party/club scene! I have tons to look forward to! *grins wide doing some cart wheels*

I do have some chores waiting for me at home and really need to get those out of the way, I plan to lounge tomorrow and see what else comes up, but other than that I have no other plans. 

Since we are working on the 2nd and everyone else is off my boss gave us a day this week as our holiday, I went for tomorrow, most took today or Friday, this place is empty, doesn't motivate me to remain here although I have tons of work to do as well, will take Thursday and Friday to do so, unless of course my ENFP ways take a hold on me and I just procrastinate because it is so boring...blaahh

We went to a few stores to kill some time...found an ottoman, excellent!! couldn'…

TMI Tuesday ~Tis better to give than receive....?~

"Tis better to give than receive..?~

For this weeks TMI Tuesday why don't you tell us:
1.  What was your favorite gift you received (gift giving holiday Christmas, Hanukkah, Kwanzaa, or heck even if you had a birthday in the month of December that can count)?

My little Coach bag! Loving the colors!
My birthday is tomorrow, still waiting to see what I will get but if my calculations are correct and like every year I probably wont get anything because they usually say "this is for Christmas and your birthday too"
oh..and my mom wrote me a real messed up email for my Bday and Xmas, yup, *lowers her head* not a good way to end Christmas, begin my Birthday or the New Years...*sighs* 
2.  What was the most practical gift you received?
Coffee maker...hehe
3.  What was the silliest, most fun, crazy, or impractical gift that you received?
a Dutch doll :/ lmao...

4.  If you had a special holiday meal, what was your favorite food?
Flan or some call it custard...I am always assigned the F…

Moms' letter

My mother is a very controlling woman, always has been, she wants to control everyone and everything around her...I guess out of respect I often comply to most of her demands, but I am not the only one she gets her way with, also with my brother and sisters, although I have to brother doesn't  put up with most of her crap.

Waking up to her email this morning took me off guard, she tries to make me see my life through her eyes as she views it yet I really don't agree with most of it, some is true and I have to agree with her, but the rest is bull crap!!  Seems to me she has this perfect little picture in her head as to what my life should be and it isn't and because of it I am a fuck up?

One of her worries is that I have been single for so long after my marriage failed...then I am in a LDR for two years and some change for which I have no comments at the moment.  Seems to me she wants to see me in a relationship more than I want to be in one, is like is been pus…

Christmas Party ~Success~

Everything was wonderful! We did a great job decorating.  Frank, as always, did a great job making the fireplace...such talent!!

He made it from recycled wood, I am telling you, he is so talented!!  Proud of him!

Another one of his creations!

Mr. and Mrs. Claus, they always make the children so happy...or scare them out their diapers!! They usually cry, but we stand in front of them making funny faces just to get a little smile for the pics!

Getting the gifts ready for the students :)

My boss brings her little houses so we can set them up...every single year this village gives me an ulcer (almost), we have to watch the kids because they are so fascinated with the trains and the little people, of course I am in charge of it...this year, for one moment I thought I was going to go to jail, some of the kids were out of control!! *faints*

As always I am happy with the results, my boss was very happy with the end results and I am happy cause I put in tons of overtime!!

Merry Christmas to al…

Decorating at work

Been up since 3 a.m cooking and trying to get the cafeteria ready for the Christmas party tomorrow.  Santa Claus and his wife will be our guests of honor like every year and the Grinch is going to be making an appearance as well; of course there will be some elf's around to help out Santa hand out the gifts, place the kids on his lap for picture time and keep them entertained.

Every year we have to figure out a theme, this year we are just going with the flow and sorta repeating what we did last year, we really have no time for it this year, there is so much going on as is, so we decided to go with last years theme...sorta.  There is much more that has to be done, there is a wall we covered with Christmas paper that we still have to make the bow and set the lights around it, Santas village needs to be set up...I need to finish decorating the tree, Frank needs to finish building the fire place, more stuff hanging from the ceiling - icicles, presents etc...cafeteria cleared out, and…

Three Wise Kings ~ continuing with the tradition

Where I come from Santa Claus doesn't visit, we actually get a visit on January 6 from the three wise kings; Gaspar, Melchor, and Baltazar.

On January 5th all the kids head out to the store to buy juices or soda, candies, crackers/cookies to make sure the three wise kings get a snack when they arrive...we collect grass and a bowl of water for the camels in case they are thirsty, they have been working the entire night...

We always wondered how they managed to get in the house when the doors were locked, little did we know that they used their magic to turn into ants to get in *smiles*.  They would place the unwrapped gifts under our bed for us to find when we woke up the next day, that was so exciting!!

When we first moved to the US I thought the three wise kings were going to come but my mother told us that Santa Claus will be coming instead...I wasn't too thrilled at first, I didn't know how the Santa business worked so I decided to do a little research...bad decision, …

WoW Day! ~Hanging Around the Mistletoe on Christmas~

Feliz Navidad!!

Hanging Around the Mistletoe on Christmas

The Christmas festivities have begun once again with carols and lights good food and champagne The best part of all his dream girls is here he stands near the fireplace beneath the mistletoe
His heart starts to pound he's nervous at best he has waited for this moment butterflies in his chest he scans the room his eyes aglow? and hopes she won't notice he's standing beneath the mistletoe
Laughter and giggles and joyful noises surround the moment is perfect to share with the girl he found across the room do you think she knows he's hanging around the mistletoe?
The crowd begins to gather around the majestic tree but tonight he would rather her angelic face to see he closes his eyes and takes it slow this Christmas night beneath the mistletoe
This Christmas he only has one wish to kiss the lady in the dreamy white dress he opens his eyes to find he's not alone to his surprise she standing beneath the mistletoe
She smiles at him and asks him his name and…

TMI Tuesday Blog ~Holiday Season~

This time of year there are so many holidays and celebrations that overlap, which is why it is called Holiday Season

1.  What will you be celebrating?  If it isn't a commonly known holiday or celebration (i.e., Christmas, winter solstice, Hanukkah, Kwanzaa) briefly tell us about it.

We celebrate "Noche Buena" which is Christmas eve...huge dinner, drinking and party until 3-4 am :) we use Christmas day to recuperate and get ready for the New Years party!

2.  What's your favorite Christmas or holiday tune?

True to my roots - Burrito Sabanero, Alegre Vengo, etc., we just have so many!
George Michael - Last Christmas
Michael Buble - his Christmas CD
Magic 106.7 and Oldies 103.3 (radio stations)

3.  If you are giving or receiving gifts this holiday season:
- What's the gift you most want?

Gosh, I feel as if this is a trick question or more like the answer is tricky - the gift I want most is to be with "him" for our time to come....

- What do you think is the bes…

I wish it was me

My friends daughter is on her way to a one month vacation to a tropical island...I so wish it was me leaving. Of course it would not necessarily be to a tropical island, I do have one particular place in mind but I love traveling so much at this point I'd take a flight to anywhere in the US and outside of course :)

I can't wait for my turn to be the one boarding, with a destination, a purpose and a goal in mind. Have fun, enjoy, see different things and places, meet new people. Just the thrill of going to a new place is amazing on its own. I live 45 minutes away from Salem, MA and each time I go there is almost like the first time, knowing all the history that took place in that town and I am standing there, as gruesome as it may sound to some people because of what happened, it is part of history...pisses me off when I hear how it all went down, but still fascinates me!

I need to make a list of the places I want to visit and why...I mean, I want to visit Seattle, Washi…

BDSM Terminology ~ Learning

I am new to BDSM, and everyday I feel even more of a noob with the terminology.  I have to google certain things (many things) and I don't ask because...well, just  because I feel a bit embarrass.

The term ttwd - hehe, how was I suppose to know that it meant "things that we do" *grins* but now I am aware of it so when I am reading a post and see it a light goes on..yaaayy!!

I encountered a new word (feeling) which I have experienced before but really never knew there was actually a term for it; I heard it for the first time when I was reading/lurking A Desire To Yield by Sky, "sub-drop"...maybe because English is my second language but when I first read it I thought it was a sub just getting dropped, but after reading her post I was able to recognize some of the signs of that certain feeling :(

Once again I was left with doubts on what it was exactly and as always I turned to google.  What would I do without Google?  The answer to that would be "turn to t…

Glad a new week begins

What a week it was! So busy and many things going on, I am just glad that everything is almost back to normal and everything worked out for the best.

My phone is on!! it is amazing how we depend so much on technology, how naked and out of reach you can feel  because of a phone or a service (Internet)...when it happened the first time I went through withdrawals, and this time around I really didn't miss it as much, gave me more time to read while on the bus, on the train and on spare time.

I have become part of the train community, now I find myself having conversations with the rest of the people, saying our good mornings asking and telling what they had for dinner, what they did after work, etc.  *smiles* I am not a quiet nor a shy person, so I thought, I guess I have changed through the years...I am quiet and listening most of the time, observing, sometimes laughing at things they they include me, they are curious about me *giggles* they ask me questions and I just lau…

Bad Girl Theory

I don't know if anyone saw and/or remembers the movie "Someone Like You" with Ashley Judd...It is based on the novel "Animal Husbandry"...It is about a woman who is looking for a logical explanation behind being dumped.  She comes up with the "New Cow Theory" which is based on research done on actual cows...the theory states that bulls will dump their old cow for a new cow, after having their way with them, and once they had the new cow, they lose interest and look for other new cows.

Of course this blog has nothing to do with new or old cows, but it really got me thinking of the "Bad Girl Theory".

I have been told I need to step up my game and stop being so nice to men, I often get this type of advice -- "if you treat them like crap you will have them/him eating out of the palm of your hand; don't make yourself so available, don't let him know or see that he is important to you and how much you love him, make him wait, let him …

TMI Tuesday ~Questionable Invitations~

1.  You have been invited to a lingerie party at the Playboy Mansion.


Do you Accept?  What do you wear?

I would accept in a heartbeat!!!
Of course if I am going to be around the playboy bunnies must at least look like one!

Why try to give you a description of what I am going to wear when I can show you!!

2.  (for women) You have been invited to a private dinner at Godfather's Pizza by Herman Cain
Do you Accept?  Why or why not?

Yes I would accept!! I would never say no to a pizza invitation!!
I had to look him up, was completely unaware of who he was..ooops

3.  Charlie Sheen (for women) is making a  movie in the city where you live.  You happen to meet him, and he suggests you stop by his hotel for a drink?
Do you go?

Crazy question....Helluuuur!!! Charlie Sheen!!! I don't drink but he don't know that!

4.  Your boss (of the opposite sex) who has been very flirty with you insists that when you've finished a project…

Lazy Sunday

And lazy Sunday is what I really mean!!

Almost time to go to bed - in about 2-3 hours - and my robe has not yet come off!

I woke up this morning, brushed my teeth, made coffee and an omelet, looked at my couch with tons of passion for I knew where I was going to spend the rest of my day.

I wanted to play some PS3, do some laundry, and get things ready for tomorrow, but I haven't done a thing! I did do some blogging, reading and catching up with my favorite blogs, posted a poem from Emily Dickinson about hope *sighs*...I live of hope...did you know that?

Not much to report I guess...oh, there is one thing! I put my profile active in, is not a dating site, is a place where you can join different groups (movies, dinner, museums, travel, photography, board games, etc.,) about time for me to get out there and do things.  I did join FANE(Fetish Alliance of New England) they are always doing munches and karaoke night among other things, would be fun and interesting to me…


Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul, and sings the tunes--without the words, and never stops at all.
And sweetest in the gale is heard; and sore must be the storm that could abash the little bird that kept so many warm.
I've heard it in the chillest land, and on the strangest sea; yet, never, in extremity, I asked a crumb of me
"Emily Dickinson"
Sincerely Yours

On slow motion

Finally is Thursday!!

I wake up early every single day, 5 AM is usually my regular time.  I used to check my emails and reply, facebook for a bit, update my twitter, check on blogger, have coffee and most times make breakfast, get things ready for dinner that evening, take a shower, do my hair, take my time looking and putting an outfit together...but the new routine of walking and doing the public transportation has changed how I used to do things. 

My time is very limited now, I have 45 minutes to do everything before I have to shoot out the door...I had to cut down on my computer time, I don't make coffee or breakfast at home anymore, I get the dinner stuff ready the night before, I haven't been able to keep up with my hair, going to bed before 9 PM most of the time (I used to go to bed around 11 or midnight) and feeling so very tired and without energy by the time I get home.

I adapt quickly to situations and changes, I am not a creature of habit, but this change is somet…


Begins with shaky hands to the point I can't type

A huge smile/grin from ear to ear, eyes get really small and barely can see...face usually hurts after a few hours depending on the amount of time spent texting.

Knees get weak, walking becomes a challenge specially the first few steps...usually goes away after 5 - 10 minutes

Tingling all over

A happiness you can't describe

Chest contracts

Erratic heartbeat

Sweaty hands

Butterflies in the tummy, once they start is hard to make them stop

Stuttering/tongue tied

Blushing, face feels hot and my little ears feel they are on fire

Smiling and laughing, followed by embracing myself and giggling

Unable to concentrate on regular tasks

always and forever daydreaming of what it can be or how it will be

Sincerely Yours

TMI Tuesday ~StOp mAkiNg sENsE~

Talking Heads video by Jonathan Demme -- Stop Making Sense.  Great film, great music. Click here to enjoy!

1.  If you were a car, which one would you be?  What are some of your best features?

Need I say more!! oh yeah, I will transform too!!!

2.  If I gave you an elephant where would you hide it?

 I would put him with his ass facing the street, they say it brings luck, least that's what my mother says!

3.  Finish this sentence:  Tomorrow I absolutely refuse to....

keep refusing to refuse

4.  What is the longest period of time you've gone without a shower?

DUDE!! One time in band camp....
I was hospitalized for 4 days, I went 2 days without taking a shower and it was because I was hooked up to IVs' on both sides and was so weak I couldn't get out of bed

5.  What is the silliest prank you ever played on someone?

I play pranks all the time, silly ones I don't remember those much...the evil ones and the "I'm getting you back for that" I do remember those!