If someone would have said to me 4 years ago that D/s relationship is something I was going to be longing for I probably would have said "you are nuts!" and one of the reason was because I really didn't know what it was about, what it meant, how the dynamics of the relationship works.
I honestly thought it was only about leather, whips and chains, inflicting pain in others and getting a kick while doing so, so yeah, I sorta knew the basics *giggles*. I heard and seen the collars, the toys and just about a great deal of the kinks but I was unaware of the most important part of such relationships; trust, respect, communication, and obedience. The closeness between two people without inhibitions, absolutely no fear to say how one is feeling, please and be pleased, be heard and understood, understand and not judge, be so open that even when dressed in their presence they can see you completely naked. So wonderful *shivers*
The more research I did about the subject, the more I read and learned, educating myself the best way I knew how I began to understand there was something I was missing, wanting, yearning, and wishing for.
I want to experience the vanilla relationship with a side of M/s because I want to belong :) the thought of knowing someone owns me, my being, everything that I am, who have total and complete control of me sends shivers up and down my spine.
I have a need to please, to love and serve, to love the one unconditionally each and everyday. The thought of seen him everyday and each time my knees get weak and the butterflies go wild, knowing I am home where I belong with who I belong, ummm what a rush!!!
I am still in search of that someone, he is probably searching for me right now...looking forward to that moment when we first look into each others eyes, the chemistry, the attraction...wow, I get goose-bumps just thinking about it, I know is going to be wonderful. I am going to make some lucky man real happy one day!
A man found this in a profile in CM and sent it to me...
I loved it so much that I want it to post it here :)
What is cock Worship???
Quite simply it is a way more then just a blow job. It is NOT about getting a Dom's cock hard, or even making the cock release...(but is very much treasured and loved when it does). It is about Love & Devotion to the cock in a very admirable way.
To love and worship a man's cock & balls, through literally loving, tasting, smelling, to loving and needing to caress, lick, suck, nurse the cock, look at the cock admirably and touch the cock in a way to show our love, respect and lust for the cock. It is something that not only gives us such pleasure to serve the cock but it clearly so important to our man who will allow us to pleasure of it and takes us where we need to be with it.
Cock worshiping is attaching your sluthood to your other. It is declaring your lust for your Dom sexually by pointing out that their cock and balls are to be g…
My motivation for masturbating this morning... drifting away as I played with my clitsliding my fingers in betweenthinking of my Mastermmmm the way he is going to spank mespreading my legs as I scream"Spank my pussy Master, make me cum please" Images in my head of how is going to playwhen he spanks my pussyas he makes his slut beg
"get in position girl" he saysI lay with my legs wide open and waitHe teases me until I begin to begwhile my pussy throbs and gets even more wetthe soft spanks makes the wayto sweet orgasms he causes his girl