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Update on Resolutions ~October~

October - full of emotions in every way, trying to find my spot in the world...a bit lost at times, but focused most of the time.

**I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure.  I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle...but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best**
"Marilyn Monroe"

1. Get fit - make and exercise plan and a meal plan and stick to it!! Yikes is all I have to say, I did great at the beginning but I hit an emotional roadblock and everything seemed to go downhill from there, but I am hitting healthy, watching what I am eating...hoping to start the gym again...

2. Budget! Budget! Budget!
OMG!! seems like October had it out for me!! but I will get back on track soon!

3. GET ON THE ROAD - Register my vehicle!DONE
4. Become a US citizen...yaaayyy - in the process!!
Things had to be postponed, I guess this resolution is going to be on next year resolutions!!! lmao

5. Organize myself and ke…

Unlucky with love or unlucky with men?

I talk to several friends about my ordeals with dating, total disaster each time...I've only had one date so far, back in July that I can't say enough about, he is awesome...but my luck...guy is married :-/

Although I have been involved in a LDR with a married man for 3 years I have learned not to put all my eggs in one basket.
I understand he is continuing with his life while my life has been at a halt waiting to see if our relationship will go to the next step/level but it hasn't.

Past month or so I have been putting myself out there...wanting to date and meeting people.

Seems like I am attracting creeps and weirdos, or guys who want to move too fast for me.

I wrote to my friend MissE keeping her updated with the dating situation...

Her response:

MissE:  oh my god, much bad luck can you have with men????? I'm so sorry...damn

Come to think about it, it is true!!

Dutch:  Married; living on the other side of the world.  Everything was wonderful and "we…

TMI Tuesday ~The Long and the Short of it~

Thank you Erotic Adventures in Brisneyland for the following TMI Tuesday questions.

The LONG and the SHORT of it

1.  What is the longest relationship you have been in?

15 years

2.  What is the shortest relationship you have been in?

about 3 years (undecided)

3.  How often do you have sex?  How often do you want sex?

I've had sex 6 times in the last seven years (all with the same guy).

I want sex for breakfast, lunch, dinner and a midnight snack...i need to make up for lost time!!

4.  How long does sex usually last? one point my husband became a one minute man...

when I was with Dutch...geez we went for hours and hours!!!

5.  Have you ever had an experience where someone couldn't perform, finished too quickly or couldn't keep up with you?  Tell us about it?

ehhrrr....couldn't keep up with x-husband..

6.  If you could only have one "type" of sexual encounter for the rest of your life, would you prefer

a)  short and sweet
b)  wham bam thank you ma…

2 Dates over the weekend *rolls her eyes*

I have no problems getting dates, my problem is keeping them, going through with heart is really not set on it because is not what I want...but making an effort here.

But this is what happened...

Date #1

We met for lunch, it was pleasant, we talked a lot, we had some things in common, but on my behalf there were no sparks, no chemistry and definitely no physical attraction.
He showed up very well dressed, but was wearing sandals with socks. 
He also had a pillow he used to support his lower back...didn't mind the pillow but the sandals with socks on? was def a turn off. 
I don't know, the shape I saw him in, having to stretch his legs, sit in certain positions cause it bothered his knees and feet.  The first thought that went through my mind "this dude can't keep up with me"
I have to give it to him though...extremely smart and eloquent. 
I noticed at one point he put something in his mouth, he did it so fast but I was paying attention, I am …

weather is not looking good...

The town/city I live in is not yet feeling the effects, but Revere, Cape Cod, Winthrop, Plum Island is getting hit!! and other towns around the ocean area are really suffering the consequences...and the funny thing is that it has not yet hit land...

They are saying we are going to be feeling the worse around midnight...someone is breaking night!! I am not scared, we live on hills, we are far from the water...but we are going to have the effects of the wind!

Winds are picking up as it approaches...already people having power outages...

Praying for everyone, cuddle, watch tv (movies) eat away, love away!! and by the time we know it, it is over!!

Sincerely Yours

update on Frankenstorm

Seems like is going to be a heavy one!

My boss already called, work was cancelled until further notice, depending on the damages it leaves behind...we live around flooding areas and we are on alert.

Just happy we don't have to work, an extra day off, and we get paid for it, can't get any better than that!

West Virginia is not expecting rain but a snow storm instead, I rather have the rain, and deal with flooding than snow, shovelling, and the cold.

do hope we have internet, will be a great opportunity opportunity to blog, catch up in my Second Life blog...put some pics in...lurk a bit :) stay busy the best way I can.

I still have to write about the 2 dates I had over the weekend...why do I even bother...i am such a persistent little slut!!! Haha

Braze yourselves, keep us posted if you are from the east coast!!

Sincerely Yours

"Frankenstorm" is coming

So  many people preparing!

The supermarkets are full, lines are ridiculous! almost 45 minutes standing there, of course knowing me, I always wait til the last minute to get ready, and it seems that I am not the only one...traffic is no different, every where you turn a huge line, geeez.
People are freaking out and getting ready for what is to come.  They are really taking it to the heart.  I actually went out because my son is a bit nervous, he made a list of things he thinks we may need, lol.  He included plywood and 2x4's, he was thinking of sealing our windows, he is too funny!!!

I hope is not that bad, usually I don't prepare so well, I do have candles, matches, gallons of water, I think the flashlights are somewhere in the house...battery for an old radio just in case (already tested the thing), we even have a plan in case we don't have power...I never thought I would be so ready for something.

I guess is because last year when we had the ice storm and we lost power f…

Mid-Day Quote(S)

Lately I have been relying on quotes to find strength, and keep my focus.

Hurting not easy to mend a broken heart.

Two quotes for today!

"My attitude is that if you push me towards something that you think is a weakness, then I will turn that perceived weakness into a strength"

"Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it,  or work around it"

Michael Jordan

Sincerely Yours Aluv

Rule #1

..If you give a guy your number and he calls you private!! RED FLAGS!!

Don't pick up, if he can have your number and you can't have his, he is either in a relationship, or just looking for a booty call...

I do not pick up Private calls
(well, aside from the fact it might be a bill collector)

Sincerely Yours

BrokenHearted "Brandy"

Why don't you tell me about it?
I'm young but I'm wise enough to know that you Don't fall in love over night
That's why I thought if I took my time That everything in love would be right
but as soon as i closed my eyes I was saying to love Goodbye
But I guess I'm only brokenhearted Life's not over I can start again While I'm lonely, brokenhearted It's a hurting thing to get over
No more empty conversations next time I will be totally sure, don't want the pain of falling in and out of love It's more than my poor heart should endure
so I'll listen to all the advice and remember each time I cry
While I'm only brokenhearted Life's not over I can start over while I'm lonely, brokenhearted It's a hurting thing to get over
so I'll listen to all the advice and remember each time I cry

But I guess I'm only brokenhearted Life's not over I can start over while I'm lonely brokenhearted It's a hurting thing to get over

Never thought I'd be alo…

Morning Quote!

a toast!!

"Here's to the guys who love us, the losers who lost us and the lucky bastards who get to meet us"

Sincerely Yours

an awesome picture

found this picture in Google Images...

I don't know what it is that draws me so much to it...

It is just amazing to me...

Quote ~I love it~

We met for a reason;
You are either a blessing,
Or a lesson.

Sincerely Yours

TMI Tuesday ~Then and Now~

Feels like Deja'vu

I know we did one with the same subject before :)

The person who submitted the questions wanted to remain anonymous.

1.  What one part of your sex life today would most surprise the 17 years old you?

That I am actually not having any sex at all!!!

2.  What one thing might shock that younger you?

same as above, that I am not having sex!!!

3.  What part of the younger you's (not necessarily at age 17) sex life do you look back on with the most nostalgia?

in 2010, when I engaged in the most passionate, exotic, erotic, loving and most amazing sex I've had in my entire life (I hope I can find that again) 

4.  Is there anything in the younger your's sexual ambitions or fantasies you have not yet fulfilled?

Yes, spanking, D/s M/s relationship, tied up (I don't know if this will happen, I have a fear of not been able to move).

Bonus:  Give your 17 year old self a piece of sexual advice.

Have more sex!!! 
Take all the opportunities you are offered!
It is ok to ha…

...Is football

 "Wildcats 1986"  I have to admit I know crap about football, but since my son joined the high school team I am all up in that!!

I am so proud of him!

Like me he didn't know jack about it!  He was into boxing and skateboarding, but now he found a new love, and so did I!!

I am so proud of our team!  The coaches say this is the best team they've had in years!  Great kids, and their winning streak is amazing! *grins ever so proud*

My son plays defense and offense #40, he is a running back, and i don't know the other position *hehe* but I do know he is catching up and playing remarkable!!!

Wonderful young men!! and there is my baby!! #40!! yaaay!!

I make sure I go to all of his games, that I am there every afternoon to pick him up from practice, of course his dinner ready by the time he comes home...I am even more excited than he is that he is playing, and he loves the attention.

His coach is trying to get him into wrestling after the season is over, another thin…

Masquerade Galla 2012

Friday we had a Masquerade ball to attend.

It was the 15th Annual Partnership Award for the company I work for.

I always leave things for the last minute (I work better under pressure), I didn't have a dress, accessories, shoes, nothing!!

I left work at 1pm, thinking of a store I could go to in order to find everything I needed, I was trying to avoid the mall...Friday afternoon, everyone getting paid, the mall was going to be a jungle, and traffic was not helping.

Went to Marshalls but they didn't have long dresses.  My friends were trying to convince me to wear a short one and show off my legs...Hellz to the no!! everyone else is going to be wearing a gown, so I want one too.
Since I couldn't find a thing at Marshalls I headed to a new Burlington Coat Factory they opened not too far from my house.


It was a hit!

I tried a few dresses on, one was too tight on the boobs, another made me look square...then I saw this purple dress...nice!!!! (I was the only one wearing…

People are so angry!

What is wrong with people this days?

they are so angry!

Seems like a lot of people are in a bad mood lately.  The stress and the pressure of the every day life seems to be getting to them.

Snapping, bad attitudes, negativity - what is this world coming to?

I may have my down days but it takes a lot for people to notice.  Always with a huge smile, I treat all the same, friendly, loving...and at least 90% of the time is what i get back from everyone around me.

Noticing that nobody really says good morning anymore.  Smiles are rare.  No courtesy

I get really concerned at times with so much violence in this world, the killing of children, women...What is happening?

now they are talking about a shortage of food for next spring...and how expensive it is going to be.
I don't know about anyone else but I am going to start growing my own veggies soon!!

Crazy people are becoming more crazy, tons of drama around.
There are more killing now and more deaths than before, ok, I understand that…

TMI Tuesday ~Can we be Just Friends?~

Thank you to Erotic Adventures in Brisneyland for the theme of this week's TMI Tuesday.

1.  Have you ever had a friendship with a someone where you secretly (or not secretly) desired them?

I've had some secret desires for a few friends and non-friends, and movie stars...I am currently having a passionate affair with Johnny Depp and he don't even know it!!

2.  Are you prone to jealousy, suspicion or insecurity when your partner spends time with an attractive close friend without you?  Why?

When my x-husband used to step out with old friends i never bothered him or acted different...until i found out he was boning them!!! 
I did trust him at one point

3.  Has a previously platonic friendship ever bloomed into a sexual relationship?

with my daughters' father.  We were best of friends and then one day...I don't know what the time I figured it out I was already pregnant ;-p

4.  Have you ever remained close friends with an ex-lover?

You betcha!!…

Awful Week, ready for a new one.

Had an awful week, full of emotions, down moments, etc.

Already have a schedule posted for this week and plan to follow it, including a budget!

I can't believe after doing so well for a while I just went down hill...but of course, I will not let that stop me, is just a bump on the road.

My goal still in sight, although I have been doing tons of research lately and it seems that in this economy the air line business is not something to get into.

I am not giving up, I need a change all around and career is of most importance here.

My only dedication lately has been to my son, picking him up from practice everyday, cooking very healthy meals, and going to his games, I have yet to miss one :)

I am so proud of that kid!  He is doing so well in school and now with sports :)


That's ma'boy!!!

Sincerely Yours

Women, Republicans, & Politics

First and foremost...I can't vote because I am not citizen of the US yet.  I know and understand that my voice and opinion are just air, they really don't count...but still, I would like to give my opinion.

Politics to me is a sin, the evil of all evils, liars, puppeteers (of course we are the puppets), people fighting about control, power, etc,.

With this elections I am scared as a woman first, then as an immigrant.

I copied and pasted something I found HERE (Yahoo questions/answers)

I am not a democrat either, I understand we are forced to choose between two evils, one is not better than the other, cause the Obama Health Care Plan is going to break our pockets, but at least they are not threatening our freedom (for women)

Is not about abortion, or the pill, welfare, or anything like that, but taking the right for us to choose!!! what is next?  what we can wear?  what jobs we are allowed to have and do?  taking our right to vote away?  the right to make our decision…

TMI Tuesday ~Fuck Yeah it's Random

Hey, hey, hey, hey...Time to get random again on TMI Tuesday.  Why?  Because it is fun to know random stuff about you; it can reveal a lot about your personality.

1.  Tell us about your sluttiest act ever.

Gosh, I am going to have to go into the vault since it has been so long...I actually can't remember any! sad sad!!
but I will have to day my x-husband and I were in the laundry room which the entire unit used, I felt play full at the moment and quickly got on my knees to give him oral...pffft he run from me!! can  you believe that? at my sluttiest moment ever!!!

2.  Have you ever played air-guitar...naked?

I haven't even played it with my clothes on!!

3.  What song do you most like to play air-guitar either clothed or naked?

Wanted Dead or Alive by "Jon Bon Jovi"

4.  Are you good in bed?  Why?

I am! I can rock my hips!! Doggie style i am a champion...again with the hips!  when I am on guessed right...the hips!
I can suck the skin of a dick...
I like t…

Feeling Bleh

There has been no sunshine in MA for 5 days!!
Temperature is not bad, we have been in the high 60's, but no sun.

I need some vitamin D and quick!

Been doing tons of reading and researching through the day about healthy eating, exercises and of course for the new career I am hoping to go into in the near future. (between lectures, testing, and working out)

Staying busy most of the day but a vegetable after I am work from home (couch potato).

It is amazing how much I accomplish from 4:45 a.m - 6:30 p.m, no wonder I am so tired by the time I get out of work and settle body just shuts down.

Taking the afternoon off from work, I need some alone time, "me" time.  Time is going so slow today, but of course...I am still working, once I leave is going to go much you wanna bet?

I can't wait to get out of here :(

Sincerely Yours

TMI Tuesday ~You Wear it Well~

Thank you German Jones for this week's TMI Tuesday theme and questions focused on clothing.

1.  What is your most favorite thing to wear that you have in your closet at the moment?

all of myHeels!!
Love to wear heels and I wear them well!!

2.  What is the one item of clothing that you have seen on one of your friends/workmates that you would steal for yourself if you had the chance?

North Face bubble Jacket! I looove North Face! so warm in the winter!!

3.  What is the one thing that your partner wears that never fails to turn you on.  Why does it turn you on so much?

His Birthday suit...I don't know why it turns me on...take a wild guess? (just so you know, I really don't have a partner (man), that is up in the air at the moment)

4.  What is the one thing you wear when you want to attract the attention of your partner or others?

Heels and red lipstick
that is all...

5.  When you want to feel sexy what you wear and why?

Heels and red lipstick *grins*

6.  If you had unlimited …