I talk to several friends about my ordeals with dating, total disaster each time...I've only had one date so far, back in July that I can't say enough about, he is awesome...but my luck...guy is married :-/
Although I have been involved in a LDR with a married man for 3 years I have learned not to put all my eggs in one basket.
I understand he is continuing with his life while my life has been at a halt waiting to see if our relationship will go to the next step/level but it hasn't.
Past month or so I have been putting myself out there...wanting to date and meeting people.
Seems like I am attracting creeps and weirdos, or guys who want to move too fast for me.
I wrote to my friend MissE keeping her updated with the dating situation...
MissE: oh my god, Aluv......how much bad luck can you have with men????? I'm so sorry...damn
Come to think about it, it is true!!
Dutch: Married; living on the other side of the world. Everything was wonderful and "we" thought we had something special, soulmates...I took the relationship to the heart, in my heart and mind I thought it could work, but I forgot one important factor...his wife!
He has pulled away from me, he does write but not with the same love and passion that he used to, and I feel he is becoming more distant as the days go by...painful shit if you ask me!!
I am broken from the inside out, but still holding it together and trying to be strong the best way that I can. I know I am in love with him, or maybe I am just in love of the thought of what could have been.
Dates: "Fuckers" yes, I call them fuckers!!! we hit it off over the phone or chatting but when we meet (first meet) dudes want to get freaky...all they talk about is getting laid, wanting blow jobs, and moving way too fast for me.
NO, I am not giving the wrong impression...I am straight out, I tell them exactly what I am looking for; long term relationship, that I don't want to jump into bed with the first guy I meet, I want to take my time, get to know each other, see if there is chemistry, sparks, and still that does not stop them from making an attempt!! is like they are ignoring what I want and saying!
Are you kidding me?
oh, another good one, if we text they ask for pictures, send a picture of my face...next text: do you have any sexy picture? breast? do you have one of your ass?
Any gentleman left in this world, or in my area to say the least?
I am beginning to think that I am unlucky with love and with men!!