There were a few words I was thinking about, like humble, humility, healthy, healed, and a few others that will come to mind, but I decided to go with heavyhearted because my heart aches, and I feel hurt.
It really explains how I am feeling at the moment.
Working so much, having no time to do anything other than sleep is taking its toll. I am getting sick, I have no energy, it actually caused me to develop diverticulitis, and although I have heard some people say that it has to do with my diet, well, my diet was fine and I never had issues until I began eating fast, not chewing my food properly, eating when I could, eating and rushing, something I have never done before.
I feel that all of my hard work is not paying off and I have gotten older in just a year from all the stress related to the night job.
I am heavyhearted because I have been working for the company for almost two decades and I feel a particular colleague is doing things on purpose to sabotage our cleaning job at night and constantly calling the night boss to complaint about one thing or another.
People does not easily make me cry, I either have to be really angry or really hurt., but this weekend I cried from the frustration.
Can't believe that after busting my ass, coming to work sick and nobody shows they care or even appreciate it
why all the hard work for?
I should just let go and allow the universe to provide.